if only you knew the damage you've done
such a small gesture
to clean for you
when you couldn't get out of bed
but then you said
no
you missed a spot
not thank you
i was so young
all i wanted was for you to love me
never good enough
because of your anxiety
i know that now
but i still feel it
your disappointment
i tried so hard
i love you but -
is all i hear in my dreams
will i go to your funeral?
i don't know
this grief is cyclical
i'm fine most days
and then i'm not
you're supposed to love me
unconditionally
but
but i love you, but....
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